Goodbye, 2017. Hello, 2018!

For the first time since I started this blog and has been posting an annual retrospective of the year that passed, I am at a loss for words.

To say that 2017 was a roller coaster of ups and downs, both on my fangirling side and my personal side, is a total understatement. On the fangirl side, I started the year with a bang (a TV appearance) that quickly turned to a whimper (I got bashed into fandom oblivion and I haven’t recovered since). Midway through the year, I entered a new phase: the no-group phase. I was on a fandom limbo of sorts, which quickly turned into non-limbo. I’m not making sense, am I. :shrug: :lmao: What I’m really saying is, I thought my fangirling days with Alden Richards was over, but it wasn’t. It just went underground. Where it’s more fun. Haha!

Then, towards the end of the year, certain events ruffled the entire fandom and it made things much more interesting. I’m quite curious as to how things will pan out (which we might find out in a few hours, when Eat Bulaga resumes its live broadcast). Who knows, I just might go back to mainstream fangirling again. Not that anyone else is interested…

On the other side of my fangirling life: my Korean ship went total Titanic and they got married in 2017… to other people. :lmao: Fortunately, I’ve already moved on to other things when it happened. It became much easier to accept.

On the personal side, my career – as in my day job – in 2017 ended on a very high note with the unexpected promotion that I received on the last quarter of the year. But that last quarter also proved to be difficult as my family faced a very tough challenge, ie. both my parents getting seriously ill at the same time. :sad: I nearly spent Christmas and New Year at the hospital taking care of my mother (my father was hospitalized the week prior to that) but by the grace of God, we were discharged two days before New Year. Both of them are now recuperating at home and while they still have to undergo therapy and continuous medication, the fact that the entire family was able to welcome 2018 together at home is already a huge blessing. I truly thank the Lord for that. :pray:

The final few days of 2017 sent me a clear message: life will throw us challenges and adversities, but if we are steadfast in our faith and never give up, everything is going to be fine. It’s time to face the new year with a heart full of hope and positivity.


For someone who’s at a loss for words, I certainly wrote a lot, ‘no? :hihihi:


Annual year-end post, 2016 edition.

My 2016 can be summed up by this photo:

At my year-end post last year, I had wondered how much closer will I get to Alden Richards come 2016. At the time, I was only wondering if I’ll get to attend more events and hopefully take more photos with him, and not necessarily solo.

Ironically, less than a month after I posted that blog, I posted a rant about the state of his fandom.

And then another month after that… I transitioned. Actually, the whole Alden fandom transitioned. Alden International came along and things were never the same again.

2016 was one big roller coaster ride. There were so many high points, and quite a number of low ones. It came to a point that I barely posted blogs, not because I got lazy/lost my drive like last year, but because I got pushed into a fandom that relentlessly destroys anyone who has a opinion that does not fit their own. Even if it’s on something as legit as wanting more substantial projects for our idols. Say something like that, and you’re dead meat.

It irks me that in this fandom, you are not allowed to have a mind of your own. You simply can’t just do your thing. Someone is just watching from the sidelines, waiting to pounce at even the smallest mistake that anyone will make. This fandom has so many geniuses. They can manipulate the nation by making them hate anyone whom they will decide as The Enemy, even if that someone is not doing anything wrong. Pag nakainggitan ka, humanda ka na. :phew:

It got so tiring. Exhausting, actually. I got to a point where I wanted to give Alden up. A week will not pass where I didn’t utter the words, “ayoko na” (I give up) to people I confide with. I even declared to my FC admins, “tatapusin ko lang ang mga commitments natin hanggang end of the year. Pagkatapos nito, ayoko na. Lalayo na ako.”

Alden International is a small, quiet group that got even smaller and quieter. But however small we are, this bunch can surely be relied on when it comes to giving their full support to Alden. We may not be the type that are always visible wherever Alden is (ironically, I am being tagged by bashers as “laging nakabuntot” – always tagging along – when I’m hardly present in most of his events and I can count my close encounters with one hand) but we show our support where it matters most. We’re just here, on the sidelines, cheering him on.

That above paragraph was supposed to be my speech at the Joint Thanksgiving Party last December 27. Not exactly in those words, but along those lines. However, it seems the universe didn’t want me to give up. When the one you’re supporting tells you himself not to give in to bashers and that he believes in you, who am I to say NO to that?

I don’t know how much uglier it will become in 2017. I just know that I’m here to stay. Alden Richards is here to stay. You bitter fools will just have to swallow that. :blink:

Have a great 2017, everyone! :soju:


Goodbye 2015; hello, 2016!

2015 has been one surreal year for me.

I thought it was going to be really boring. I mean, I was close to giving up this blog. I sorta lost passion in fangirling, in fact I had declared myself semi-retired. By ‘semi’, I meant I would still watch any Kpop concert that would still interest me, or attend events that I would find interesting. But to spend money, time and effort just for blogging purposes as I used to do? Nope.

Then July 16, 2015 happened. I did retire from Kpop, but got spontaneously plucked out of fangirling retirement by this phenomenon called AlDub.

In a nutshell, this was 2015 for Agent P:

I wonder how much closer would it get come 2016? :think: Your guess is as good as mine.

Have a great year ahead, my dear readers! :cheer: :party:


Welcome, 2014!


Admittedly, I’m in a great mood now because my January 1 Trauma has been overcome, thanks to the fact that Dispatch’s opening salvo for the year does not involve anyone of my ships. :hihihi: (But I’m still shocked about Lee Seung Gi and YoonA, though I didn’t feel like punching anyone in the face after reading the news on my cellphone.)

In the spirit of recalling what the previous year has become for me, I can say that my personal life has been GREAT. :cheer: I finally got a new team at work, and while it’s not perfect, it’s thousands of miles better than my previous one. I finally had peace of mind and very little work-related stress which I haven’t experienced for about seven years. For that alone, I am thankful. :smile:

2013 is also a milestone year for me in many ways. I entered a new decade this year, though I don’t feel any older. In fact, many of those who learned what my real age is couldn’t believe it and said I look so much younger. :hihihi: As opposed to the past where I only feel younger but look so much older. That’s a blessing I should be thankful for, right?

I had three opportunities to travel last year, and while it wasn’t my first time in any of them, each experience felt like new for me. My Korea trip last July was the first time I lead the group because my usual travel buddies who act as navigator and translator weren’t with us. I went to Boracay with Voltes, where I had to wade through flood waters just to reach the airport and we had to wait more than six hours before we finally got to board the plane. And then I tried drowning myself voluntarily by signing up for helmet diving and did everything wrong so I almost got killed in the process. NEVER AGAIN. :ayaw: In October, I went to Hong Kong and Macau with my parents. It has always been my dream to take my parents to a vacation and that dream was fulfilled last year.

As for the AgentP side of me… I didn’t bother to backread my blog entries like I always do every year because (1) I won’t be reading much; I think I wrote the least amount of blog entries last year; and (2) I know that most of what I’ll be reading is crap. It started off bad and ended ‘meh’. Things might change tomorrow once he releases his new album, though. Hey, I’m still hopeful. :smile:

I don’t have any New Year’s resolutions nor wishes. I’ll just live my life one day at a time, and pray that everything will be all right.