I’m so tired.

What I really want to do right now is to rant non-stop about my current situation at work, but somehow, words fail me. Is it because I’m too tired this past (Hell) week that I don’t have enough energy to rant anymore? Is it because I’ve numbed out? Or maybe because I know that in the end, it’s not worth it? Or simply because ranting on the internet have caused other people to lose their jobs so it’s better safe than sorry? I have security of tenure, though, and ranting about my boss on the internet doesn’t qualify as a ground for dismissal from government service in this country. It could be a ground to have me moved to another team, though, which I’d welcome anytime. Actually, I am due to be moved to another team. However, I heard the working conditions in that team (namely: the boss) are pretty much the same as my current one, so now I’m down to this decision: Should I stay with the known evil, or move to the unknown evil?

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On to the more interesting topic:

I really wonder how fans from other countries - China and Japan, in particular - were able to find out where exactly Rain is and where he will be next? I’m asking because, as you all know, my current predicament as the so-called leader of his supposedly official fan club in this country is that everyone seems to know that he’s coming to the Philippines except me.

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Edit:

Aaaand… hell week is over. I think I’m just gonna crawl on my bed and sleep the entire weekend. For some reason, my body aches like crazy, like I’ve just undergone a strenuous physical activity when in fact I just sat in front of the computer and finished 15 reports in two days (supposed to be 19 but the other four had not submitted their financial statements yet). And yet this lovely boss of mine still had the temerity to say, “only 15 reports?” with marked disappointment on her face. Uh boss, those 15 reports are all mine; the other 11 is YOUR assignment, which YOU assigned TO YOURSELF, and you haven’t finished yet. And you even had the nerve to ask me, “Paulette, do you think we’ll be able to finish everything today?” To which me, with my sharp tongue that managed to finally wag after several months of holding it, blurted out, “err… I’m already done with my reports, ma’am.”

I’m gonna majorly slack off next week. Maybe I’ll finally be able to post all my Malaysia blog entries…

My staff gave me a surprise belated-birthday bash at the office last Thursday. They even wore my pasalubong Kuala Lumpur t-shirts for the occasion. It feels great to know that even if the higher-ups don’t appreciate me as a person, some people at the office still do.

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Anyone here knows where I can get some nasi lemak in Manila? I’ve been craving for it for almost a week now. I’m craving for it so much that I want to jump on the next Air Asia flight to anywhere just to order their in-flight nasi lemak.

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I have exactly one week to finish all my reports and yet I’m not flustered at all. I think I’ve come to the point that nothing, work-wise, makes me care anymore. I’ve been numbed out.

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I’m actually more concerned about other matters concerning my everyday life. One of which is: I should be posting my Malaysia blog entries by now, but I haven’t done so yet.

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The other being, why is it that everyone, as in EVERYONE in the Philippine Kpop Community seems to have at least heard (for some, they are dead sure about it) that Rain is having a concert in the Philippines very, very soon (September, from what I heard? They didn’t say what year, though) EXCEPT his own Philippine fan club?

I find it very insulting because if this is the case, apparently, the local promoter is seeking promotional assistance from somewhere or someone else that is not Cloud Philippines. And as far as I know, there is no other Rain fan club here aside from CloudPH, unless someone is secretly plotting on creating one that will only sprout once the concert is confirmed. Hey, it’s not like fan groups that suddenly appear once the artist is in town and act as if they’ve been there all this time has never happened before, ya know.

And I find it very amusing that even if I quote confirmed sources like… I dunno, Rain’s agency J Tune … they’re still like, “there’s been talks about it for months now”.

Dear Pinoy Kpop fans: In Rain’s world, “talks” doesn’t equate to “confirmed”. In fact, in Rain’s world, nothing is confirmed until he’s actually there in the flesh. In fact, he could be there in the flesh and it may still get canceled at the last minute. If you’re really his fan and not just a simple bandwagoner of Kpop, you would know this very, very well.

I honestly can’t see how he could hold a concert here when his filming schedule is so packed and he doesn’t have a scheduled Asian tour at the moment. Someone said maybe he would do a concert especially for the Philippines. My reply to that is: “I’m sorry, but we’re the Philippines; we’re not Japan.” And ok, assuming that it’s indeed true… September 2010? Are you kidding me??? It’s one week ’til August now and we’re hearing NOTHING about this concert yet. What is the promoter planning to do, just make Rain appear here out of nowhere with near-zero promotions and insane ticket prices? Do they want another U-KISS/Beast-KHJ?

I read somewhere that even if you ask J Tune now, they wouldn’t even confirm his filming schedule for Fugitive here in PH even if press releases have been saying that PH is one of the filming locations (which leads me to believe that there is a possibility that he won’t be in the scenes to be filmed here). Then again, it’s J Tune. That company doesn’t know anything at all.

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Call me selfish, but my mood now is, I don’t want Rain to come here and be hounded by fans who are not really his fans but mere bandwagoners declaring to be his fans but if you ask them some Rain trivia, they don’t know shyte about him. They just want to see his hot body in the flesh, period.

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Speaking of Rain fans: I wonder what’s gonna happen to Cloud8? With all the trouble J Tune is facing now, I’m a bit apprehensive as to how they are still going to manage this. It’s been badly managed even when J Tune wasn’t in trouble, how much more now?

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Aaaand speaking of J Tune… I’m sorry, no offense to the other Clouds, but I really don’t see how trending a topic at Twitter will help solve this issue. I actually think it will make it worse. Why? Because right now, only those in Korea and overseas fans who have been following the Korean news about him religiously would know about Rain’s issue with J Tune stockholders. If this topic trends at Twitter, now all the world will know about it. That’s not something worth shouting to the world especially if we’re trying to build Rain’s image in the international scene, right?

Oh well. Your choice, your actions.

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Edited to add:

I decided to just include this here instead of writing another blog entry since it’s full of random thoughts.

Charice is back for the 3rd time at the show that officially gave her the big break in Hollywood: Star King. Here are the clips (credits to TheSpoopke at YouTube):

Part 1

Two things I want to note on part 1:

(1) I love how Kang Ho Dong looked like a proud father when Charice entered the stage;
(2) I love it even more how Charice was not “sapaw” in her duet with the girl (meaning she didn’t try to outsing the girl even if she clearly can do it). Certain female singers from that Sunday noontime musical variety show from her home network here in PH should learn a lesson or two from Charice.

Part 2

I think I got more jealous that Charice got to hug Ho Dong and CNBlue’s Jung Yong Hwa.

Part 3

I think Charice was told to sing like the way she used to just for Star King. She doesn’t belt this way anymore because David Foster taught her to tone it down. Still, the improvements were very obvious, especially with the tone of her voice. Not to mention the vast improvement in her clothes and make-up as compared to how she looked like when she first guested at Star King where she was made to look like a kindergarten student.

Final random thought: Comments at YouTube pointed out the lack of reaction on f(x)’s Sulli’s face when everyone else were excited about Charice. Some said maybe Sulli was jealous; I say maybe the plastic on Sulli’s face doesn’t allow her to react anymore.

I don’t know what it is that’s keeping me from posting my food blog. I was supposed to do it now and I’m actually done selecting, resizing and tagging the photos that will accompany that entry, but my computer just had to act up again. My good ol’ desktop PC has died on me - well, maybe not yet but I’m kinda getting sick and tired of always trying to find out what’s wrong with it so I decided to finally retire it for good - so I’m now using my laptop for the meantime that I haven’t bought a new CPU. The thing is, while working on the food pics, I decided to install Clubbox because there’s a new Mnet Rainy Day out (Yes, it’s Rain’s fault that this happened ) and I totally forgot that CB doesn’t work on Vista, which happens to be my laptop’s OS. Long story short, Vista went bonkers and if not for that nifty little thing called System Restore, I’m probably doing this: right now and I’ll definitely be having serious withdrawal symptoms from now until the new desktop arrives.

So yeah, food blog will just have to wait a few hours more. It’s almost 3:00am now and I need to get some sleep first.

PS: Do not edit food pics in the wee hours of the morning when there’s nothing to cure your hunger pangs. Just sayin’.

PPS: Does anyone have any non-CB download links for Mnet Rainy Day?

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Edited to add:

This singer G-NA has released her debut single which happens to be a duet with Rain. That part is big enough because not everyone can have a World Star performing a duet with them on their debut. So I really wonder why there is this need to promote this song as Rain’s “first duet in his entire career” which is obviously very, very wrong? Rain has already recorded a lot of duets in his career. To mention a few:

How Much I Love You - with Byul
Miracle - with Lee Soo Young
Cassiopeia - with Lim Jeong Hee
That song with C-Luv on the Rainism album
Man Up - with Omarion
Perfect Interaction - with Lee Hom, feat. Lim Jeong Hee
Two Much and Oh Yeah - with AI

Not only were the articles misleading, his name was really used and abused to promote G.NA, it makes you wonder who should be credited for this song. I think it’s a nice song, though. The melody is quite catchy. I just don’t like the way it’s being promoted.

credits: ratoka4 at YouTube

My latest entry on this blog was five days ago. That wasn’t really a long absence, but considering how on certain days I could whip up about two to three new entries within 24 hours, I probably look like I’m slacking off. I know a few readers of this blog who get really impatient whenever two days have passed and there’s nothing new in here.

Ok, what’s new with me: Well, I was supposed to beat a deadline last Tuesday, but after spending one late night at the office with no dinner my boss probably realized the futility of trying to beat that insane deadline with just me working on it, so we ended up just submitting whatever was available and asking for an extension for the rest. I’m sure the provincial office would understand; after all, our report is highly dependent on whatever our clients submit, and if they don’t submit anything, citing such lame reasons as, “we don’t have any fasteners” there’s really nothing much we could do anymore, right?

So, work deadline? Taken care of. However, my woes ain’t over yet. My mom’s blood pressure shot way down yesterday morning for whatever reason (I think it’s an after-effect of her amoebiasis last week) so now she’s in the hospital undergoing more tests. She’s alright, though; in fact, she ends up eating whenever she sees food, so I don’t think she’s sick at all.

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Most Filipino readers of this blog are probably aware of how GMA-7’s news anchors, specifically Pia Guanio, have butchered practically every Korean name they say in their news broadcasts. The most famous of which is how they came up with several versions of the name Kim Hyun Joong. Last night, they featured Park Yong Ha’s funeral and Ms. Guanio introduced him as… “Pork Yong Ha”. (I suddenly had visions of pork dumplings when she said that.) I was also told that they mistakenly referred to SS501’s Kim Hyung Joon as the guy who recently went to the Philippines (it was Hyun Joong who went here, not Hyung Joon) as a member of the group… Beast. I would’ve understood if they said he was from U-KISS because at least Hyung Joon’s brother is from that group, but that’s still a FAIL (and poor Ki Bum if that happened; in another GMA-7 show that featured U-KISS, they mistakenly showed a photo of Super Junior’s Kim Ki Bum in place of U-KISS’ Kim Ki bum).

And to further show how much of an EPIC FAIL their researchers are: I would’ve thought that the reason why the Park Yong Ha news was featured on a primetime news program here was because Park Yong Ha was in the cast of Winter Sonata and it was one of the most popular Korean dramas here. Instead, the reason why they featured it is because… Jodie of Stairway to Heaven (referrring to Choi Ji Woo) attended the funeral. Uh, GMA-7 peeps, didn’t you even wonder why “Jodie” was there? She was “Janice” before she became “Jodie”, remember?

This blog has been awfully silent for the past few days, probably because there hasn’t been much going on (that’s worth talking about, anyway). I had planned on writing a new food blog this weekend since I haven’t written one for quite a while. However, my boss gave me some wonderful news last Thursday afternoon: she handed me a slip of paper and said, “this is your assignment for the barangay audit reports”. Said paper contains a list of 20 - yes, TWENTY - barangays, and deadline for submission will be next week. And she gave the assignment to me on Thursday, 20 minutes before 5:00pm.

And there’s even better news yesterday, 30 minutes before she left the office. She said we shall be submitting the reports to our provincial office at 4:00pm on Tuesday, June 29, 2010.

Bra-frickin’-vo, Boss.

It would’ve been a more welcoming experience if she just pulled out a gun and shot me in the head.

Therefore, unless there will be something I wouldn’t be able to resist writing about, I shall remain silent and will hopefully go back, still alive and sane, on the 30th of June. Good luck to me.