Return to innocence.

I made a K-pop comeback last weekend and realized something:

I miss the innocence of being a fan.

You know those times when you’re just starting to be a fan of a certain artist that every little thing that happens bring you so much excitement and joy? When you’re not jaded about all the fandom politics and not paranoid of the people around you? When you have little to no expectations, thus, everything you experience is a pleasant surprise?

Yeah, it all happened last weekend. And I realized to myself how much I missed all that.

As we were roaming around Mall of Asia grounds to get to the concert, I witnessed all the fan projects and activities and saw how everyone gets so excited at just receiving a small photocard or whatever memorabilia they could get. At first I was like, “I used to do that in my first few years as a Cloud; when my room got so cluttered, save for original merchandise everything went to trash afterwards.” :hihihi: But before they ended up in the trash bin, they made me really happy. I could feel what the young Carats were feeling that day and had a pang of nostalgia.

When my niece received a simple gesture of recognition from a Seventeen member, she was so ecstatic that I literally felt her whole body shaking from euphoria. I remembered the time when a simple moment like the idol noticing our FC banner felt like we won the grand lotto.

Everything was so simple then.

I asked myself: When was the last time I felt the pure bliss of innocent fangirling? I couldn’t remember anymore.

And that’s just sad.

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Not like it used to be.

Hi! I’m Agent P, and I’ve just been addicted to online TV.

Yes, I am slow. :lol:

It started when my local cable provider sucked big time. Coincidentally, Globe offered to upgrade by net connection at home and threw in this lovely contraption called an Android box which allowed my not-too-smart TV to connect to the internet via WiFi and let me install these lovely streaming apps and watch it on the big screen. Since then, I dropped my cable subscription and signed up for everything that’s available in my country: Netflix, iFlix, HOOQ, Fox+, with YouTube and Viki thrown in for good measure. Thanks to these apps, I was able to update myself with the latest on K-entertainment. I haven’t really plunged myself back to the world of K-dramas, though; too much commitment for that. :P But I have been watching a lot of Korean variety shows and music clips, so I’ve been a little bit abreast with the latest trends.

Nowadays, I’ve been literally hooked on HOOQ. True confession: the only reason why I signed up on HOOQ is because they have Alden’s drama series, Victor Magtanggol, on their line-up. :hihihi: However, I discovered that HOOQ has a vast collection of classic Filipino movies and TV shows as well as a good number of indie films. It’s the classic movies that had me deciding to continue my subscription after the free trial period expires. Finally, I can watch those movies any time I want instead of waiting for it to be aired on Cinema One or PBO. I have practically the entire roster of Regal Films movies from the 80’s on my playlist. :hihihi:

Which brings me to this anecdote. (Damn, I sound so random. :grin: Then again randomness has always been my blogging style, so whatever.) One of the first old Pinoy movies which I watched on HOOQ is Ten Little Indians, released in 1982 and starring William Martinez; Herbert Bautista (now Mayor of Quezon City) and his two siblings Hero and Harlene; and the WEA Twins. (How classic is that? :lol: )

I just remembered seeing it at a movie house when I was a little kid and remember crying buckets over it, so I checked it out.

I got the shock of my life.

The movie started out just like a typical Regal movie in the 80’s (although this one was actually released by Good Harvest Films, a subsidiary of Regal). William’s character was a mentally-challenged guy who has fantasies of being a cowboy who hates Indians (as in Native American Indians). At one point, while in his cowboy fantasies, he kidnapped a bunch of children and their teacher, because they wore costumes as the ten little Indians for a school program. That alone is reeking of political incorrectness.

And then it gets uglier.

While in the mountains, cowboy and Indians eventually developed affinity with one another until they chanced upon a group of gangsters. The gangsters beat up the cowboy; raped the teacher in front of the kids (!); verbally abused the female children through sexual innuendos; attempted to rape one of the girls because the gangster wasn’t satisfied with the teacher (!!!!!) (there’s even a cringe-worthy scene where they were asking the girls’ ages and found the 8-year-old ‘too young’ while the 10-year-old ‘pwede na‘ Oh God that was disturbing); shot and killed one of the boys point-blank, in front of the others; and two other boys got killed so that the rest of them can escape.

I was thinking: if this was shown today, it would definitely be slapped with an R-18 rating. That is, assuming it gets shown at all. I’m pretty sure it will generate a lot of disapproving buzz from netizens who always find something to complain about.

And then it hit me: I saw this film when I was a child. At a movie theater. I don’t even remember who I saw it with, but most probably my cousins who were also minors at the time.

I don’t remember finding it offensive at all. Or did I even understand what was going on then?

Times have really changed.

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Speaking of things that have changed…

I saw these from my social media feeds today.

1. Mr Weatherman’s fanmeets now have mandatory group photo ops with the attendees;
2. One Filipina Shinhwa Changjo was recognized by some Shinhwa members at an event in Korea. As in the members know her by face and name;
3. Shin Hye Sung wore a Penshoppe hoodie, given by a Pinoy fan.

I wonder: if I didn’t give up on the Kpop scene, maybe someday I’ll finally get my moment with my Korean idol? In 20 years, maybe? Most of my fellow Clouds got it at the 13-year mark…

This last paragraph is random as hell. :lmao:

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Starting over.

Hello, blog readers! Are you still there? :razz:

I think I should be the one asking myself that question: Hello, Agent P! Are you still here?

I think it’s about a week ago when I received an email notification from Google Adsense telling me that my subscription has been terminated due to non-activity. Basically, it’s telling me that my blog has been dead, so they’re pulling out.

I honestly didn’t know what to feel when I read that email.

To be quite honest, I have been seriously pondering on whether I should still continue maintaining this blog. I have been amiss with updating it, and the few times that I have updated it, I wasn’t sure if people are still reading. I was thisclose to posting something ‘controversial’ just to check if it’s still generating site traffic. :lmao: The only reason why it’s still up is because my domain and webspace are paid until April 2019. After that, I’m still not sure if I’m still willing to pay good money to have it renewed.

It will all depend on what will happen within the next few months.

Why am I updating this now? Well, there’s a lot of things happening in the next few days, so I needed to refresh my blogging skills. Alden’s concert is this Friday. (Not sure if I have the drive to blog about this, though. I’m kinda traumatized from writing/posting about him and either getting ignored, or receiving a ton of ridicule and messages telling me to go kill myself in return. :neutral: ) The week after that, I’m going back to K-pop for Seventeen’s Manila concert. (Yup, surprise! I’m watching Ideal Cut in Manila. One of these days I’m going to blog about how it happened.) Next month, I’ll be reviving my passion for travel, photography and food-tripping. That should keep this blog busy before I plunge back to that stressful environment known as my day job…

Of course, blogging all of that will only be possible if, and only if, I have the drive to write. I need some motivation. No. A LOT of motivation. A little push, please? :razz:

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‘I Will Be Here’ on Spotlight.

When you have a ton of work deadlines that are yet to be met, and you dropped everything just to listen to Alden Richards sing a piano acoustic version of I Will Be Here.

It’s SOOOOO GOOD. So good, that I looked like this -> :dream: the entire time that I was watching the video. So good, that I had to write a blog about it even if I haven’t written anything here for quite some time.

The thing with singing with just an acoustic instrument as accompaniment is that, the singer has no place to hide the flaws in his voice. For a non-singer like Alden, this is such a fearless thing to do: sing with just the piano to back him up. He did so well here. No bum notes and just a slight hint of hoarseness on some parts. It’s actually a brilliant idea to not edit out that short part where he missed his cue because that only proves that he sang LIVE. :clap:

Finally, that last note: SUBLIME. :drool:

Who is his vocal coach these days? I want to treat him/her to dinner. Seriously.

Dear GMA Records: can you please release this version as a single? As in this LIVE piano acoustic version. I’ll be more than willing to buy it. Including it on the next album would be nice, too.

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Titas of K-pop.

Yesterday was the first day of ticket selling for the Manila leg of Super Junior’s Super Show 7.

Yesterday – actually, for the past several days – there’s this thing being brought up by the younger generation of K-pop fans. That is, the current K-pop acts are more successful because they are raking in millions of views in record time on YouTube compared to the “old” K-pop artists.

Yesterday, the hashtag #TITASOFKPOP surfaced on Twitter.

And yesterday, I realized that I am a Tita of Kpop. :lol: (Note to non-Pinoys: ‘Tita’= ‘auntie’)

During the height of BTS at the 2018 BBMAs where they *almost* broke the Twitter record set by AlDub and Eat Bulaga, one of my beloved bashers Tweeted that there’s no indication that me, Agent P, is a K-pop fan. :ehh: Therefore, more than a decade of me blogging about Korean entertainment is what… just me being a troll? :think:

Don’t answer that. :lmao:

A brief history for the new readers of this blog: I started becoming a staunch supporter of anything Korean in 2005. June 2005, to be exact. My baptism of fire with K-pop happened in July 2005 when I made an impromptu trip to Hong Kong just to see Rain. In fact, the monicker Agent P was borne out of my being a fan of BiKyo (Rain and Song Hye Kyo of Full House fame). It was given to me by a fellow Soompier (Bambiina, who’s a big BTS fan now), when Soompi was still a haven for fans of Korean entertainment as it was a place where we could freely discuss anything about our biases and we will not be judged for it. I became Agent P because I can spot things about Rain and SHK that most fans do not notice.

I have this whole blog as testament of my being a Kpop/Kdrama fan. However, I’ve kinda lost track of anything Korean in 2015 when I became an active fangirl of Alden Richards. I only get my updates from socmed posts of friends who are still into it, and my teen-aged nieces who are now into it. :hihihi:

Going to that topic of current Kpop acts being more successful than old Kpop acts because of YouTube hits: first of all, you cannot use that as an accurate measure of success because YouTube back in my day (which is 13 years ago) is nothing like the YouTube of today. Back in the day, YouTube – social media, in general – was not considered an influential marketing tool. We only upload videos for entertainment and media sharing, and nothing else.

Back in the day, only a few countries have really fast internet connection. Most of us cannot keep up with the ultra-fast internet connection of South Korea, that the only way we catch our favorite Korean shows and MVs was through downloads. Very, very few outside Korea were able to stream in real time. Streaming wasn’t even considered when talking about TV ratings and record sales back then. It is for this reason why the extremely popular drama You Are Beautiful had low TV ratings. Its target audience was the younger viewers who watch TV via real-time streaming; their viewership was not included when ratings were calculated.

Back in the day, the term HD was non-existent. By HD, I meant High Definition and not ADN’s favorite HD, Hidden Desire. :rolleyes: For us Lumang Tao ng K-pop (Ancient People of K-pop), HQ (High Quality) was the most prized video resolution. HQ meant a video size in 640×480 pixels. :lol: When HD came along, it was 720p. And because high-speed internet was quite rare for the ordinary non-Korean netizen, a person who possesses internet connection that can quickly download a HQ video with a 700mb file size was considered a hero. :clap: Said hero would have to invest in that God-given invention known as a CD/DVD burner because she would be everyone’s source of MVs and K-drama/variety show episodes. I still remember when I had to learn how to edit, hardsub and convert video files to be shared to those who cannot watch videos with soft subs. Oh, and remember when we searched high and low for that perfect media player that can play any video format that’s burned on DVDs?

The younger generation will never understand all these, because they never experienced it. Nowadays, they can just click away and that’s it. Consider yourself lucky, kids.

But for us Titos and Titas of K-pop, those were good times. We’ve had many ‘difficulties’, so to speak, but as a result many real-life friendships blossomed because of it. Don’t count us out; these veterans have battled many wars that most of you might never go through. In fact, some of them are still there battling with you.

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